Did I actually say he was nice?

He forgot to write the customer reference number hence I can't book an appointment.

Just came back from matriculation fair.

I went with Adilah and we bumped into Lulu and Liyana so we were happily wandering around together. =)

I bought the Fujitsu S7110. I think the Fujitsu guy must have been amused with me because I asked as many questions as I could possibly think of, without having a real idea what each computer-y term meant. I used alot of layman terms and I was somewhat relentless as I moved from model to model. Initially he wasn't very friendly, neither was he a very good salesman but later on, I think he became quite nice and gave me quite alot of information so that I somewhat understand why I chose the Fujitsu over the rest. In layman terms, of course.

After that we walked about the CCA booths. I bumped into my sister's friend, Hakim. =) Bumped into alot of people whom I had met at the camp, too.

We signed up for alot of CCAs. Everything was so appealing! We stayed longer than most because we got caught up in the different booths.

Goodness. I feel so tired out right now. To think I'm going to have to travel to and fro to Clementi on a regular basis from now on.

I want my laptop and I want it now!

When I see you smile
I can face the world, oh oh,
you know I can do anything.

You don't have to say you love me
Just be close at hand
You don't have to stay forever
I will understand
Believe me, believe me
I can't help I love you
But believe me, I'll never tie you down

It's difficult to balance life sometimes. It's hard not to feel the desperation especially when you're clutching at straws.

It's sad that I had to delete my previous blog. Well, Theresa really, because I had called her in a panic, asking her to help me.

I was at NUS when my dad called, reading out to me one of my entries [about PCH], asking if I was the author. He was pretty sure I was because it was my style and because it had my name. [But he still wasn't sure if it was MY blog] Upon hearing that, I became all frantic and panic-key, fearing that he would stumble upon later entries with pictures.

So I enlisted the help of my trusty friends. Hahah.

But now that blog's GONE. =(

I feel so much better about the entire wanting-to-club fiasco.

I think it's a normal thing to want to occasionally - as Taha so aptly puts it - be gone with moral responsibilities. I questioned my mom, asking her what was so wrong when all I wanted to do was dance. She said it's up to the individual..whether I'd be happy in an atmosphere where bodies are pressed together with the smell of sex [and sleaze] hovering. I guess I'll never know whe decadence until I fully experience it and maybe then I'll change my mind and realize that it's not that bad, but that's actually what I want to avoid the most. To "realize" that it's not that bad.

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How do you fight for peace?

Read this.

While governments are still debating on the need for an immediate ceasefire, attacks are still being launched, people are dying.

And look at this.

Taken from here:

These days, the Israeli government hardly bothers with the pretence that it is only waging war on those it regards as terrorists. The bombing of civil institutions, destruction of power stations and killing of civilians constitutes warfare against the unarmed and everyone knows it, even if the attempt is made to justify it as being directed at inducing action against Hezbollah and Hamas.

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It might push into more active opposition those already hostile to them, at least in Lebanon, but having seen the beginnings of a return of prosperity, no one wants the country to go back to a reliving of the nightmare of the 17 years of civil war that only ended in 1990.

Even those in the middle classes, who are seeing their livelihoods going up in smoke, or in the well-established elites of the various Lebanese communities, who regard Hezbollah as a troublesome upstart, are likely to be wary of sponsoring actions that would make them appear to be doing Israel's bidding or capitulating to its intimidatory tactics, *especially against an organisation that displayed courage, skill and imagination in freeing the occupied south.

*referring to how Hezbulloh was formed to protect the Lebanese against Israel occupation which lasted 8 years

Next on the itinery -

I had fun shopping with Shaza today. It was especially fun when we were hugging the curtain of the fitting room to our bodies while poking our head out and talking to each other and looking around the shop. Hahah!

Bought alot of stuff.

Damn, I need to control my spending!

Am currently baking cookies again. The first batch turned out bad, let's hope this second batch is good.

This morning I checked my inbox and I realized I have three new testimonials!

Yippedy-doo-da-dey!

(b) cos what you love, you fear you will lose says:
anythg jus text me uh on my fone

[salad days] says:
i dont have yr number

(b) cos what you love, you fear you will lose says:
9*******... jus text me ah.. i'll be bored during the trip to sch

[salad days] says:
hahaaa

[salad days] says:
i dont really know what to say though

(b) cos what you love, you fear you will lose says:
haha.. start by stating wether u'd mind going out with a guy 2 years yr junior

(b) cos what you love, you fear you will lose says:
heh bye! text me

Wowza.

I'm proud of myself. I spent the past hour trying to choreograph a particular dance inspired of course, by Carmen Electra's lap dance video and Michelle's dance. But I swear, I'm going to burn Baby Boy and emulate her moves in that one because the performance she put up for the WRP was ON FIRE.

So I'm going to happily shut myself up in my room once again and continue the dance because the moves are hot. Not the lap dance one because that one's hot for a different reason but Michelle's one.

So yeah. I felt awesome. I didn't even notice the extent that I was perspiring because I was having so much fun and Gandos! She was having fun chasing my feet and watching my hands.

Anyhoo, I owe a big thanks to Taha for the sense he talked into me yesterday. Not really sense, but for telling me I'm great the way I am. =)